you know what i hate?

plans that don't get happened. this seems to be an inevitable part of life and is much easier to take as i become old but still feels disappointing from time to time, depending on the nature of the plan.

things i am certain i will do this year because i have talked about them:
1) become a rap goddess
2) write a fantasy novel with jackson
3) begin/continue a reading series in my apartment starting with february
4) read things from my brain for multiple upcoming readings including but not limited to three tents, mock turtle and 'a thing at a place where you listen to some people read some things' (on my birthday!!!)
5) go to awp with jackson and see everyone (this is definitely happening because we have already booked everything)
6) apply for a visa in new zealand and apply for jobs in new zealand and return to new zealand in december for 'the long run' (aka 2-3 years), in tandem with this move out of my apartment in august and live at home from sept-dec (bleak?)
7) finish my thesis and also create a real list of places where i want to send it not just one in my head
8) get my mfa degree (expect this to happen in december now)
9) continue writing reviews for the lit pub
10) revise and send out an essay i wrote in december comparing girlie beat poets and internet lit writers
11) apply to teach high schoolers this summer
12) successfully teach 'the rhetoric of cult film' (lol)
13) be in love with jackson nieuwland